Today was my birthday.

God why do I have this awful feeling
Every single year I get the horrible end of birthday depressing feeling, this is exactly why I hate making a big thing of birthdays it just makes me sadder at the end. I appreciate everyone doing all their lovely things for me (the people at the firm where I'm doing work experience surprised me with a cake!) but I just like things to be normal.
Gosh I sound like an ungrateful bitch so I should stop now.
Why am I so fucking sentimental, I actually feel a bit like crying. I have no idea why when people do super nice things for me, it makes me feel awkward.

Sorry this is so godawfully depressing.
I hope you had a good day!

femme

My friends had a surprise pre-birthday party for me last week, which was really lovely. It mainly consisted of sitting around, talking, eating cake. My best friend made me such an awesome cake! It was a coffee cake, and then around it there were little pandas made out of two cupcakes. God it was just the best.
Excuse the hideous picture of my hand, but LOOK at the nail polish, the black one is so cool, after you put on a base coat you apply the black one and when it dries, it cracks.
Also this weekend, I went to my friend's summer party. She had her Indian exchange there, who was called Krishi and naturally everyone wanted her to do henna on them and I felt a bit bad for her because it must get annoying. She was really nice.
Yesterday, I went to some induction thing at a school I'm thinking of going to for sixth form next year, it was pretty rad, the people were nice, the place was nice and all that shit. It's a boys' school, but they take girls in sixth form and my younger brother already goes there. As I was walking around, lots of people were yelling my name and I was very confused but it turned out they were my brother's friends. My brother recounted to me how they said I was "bufftingz" and I'm sure both my brother and I hope they were joking.
On a lighter note, I met lots of lovely people, including this guy who was called Mahu or something like that and he was awesome, we talked for ages about really lame stuff and about his work experience (he did it at Louis Vuitton!) where they gave him lots of free stuff. Then he let me touch his Afro and I knew it was the beginning of a beautiful friendship...
Nah I'm kidding he was nice though.
This is the explosion of words that comes with being too lazy to update properly.




Oh, and my Breathless DVD arrived! Even though I've seen it lots of times before, it's still amazing shit and now I finally own the dvd FUCK YES.

Jean Luc Godard

ah.

Look at me looking like a pose-y idiot...That was what I wore yesterday, so this is a day late. Went to London yesterday. It was a very social day- had lunch with some friends who we hadn't seen for an age,  then had dinner with friends who got back from New York last week. Needless to say, dinner was filled with their anecdotes of adventures in New York- it made me so envious, I want to go to New York too. I don't think I could ever stay there for too long though because it is very city-ish (I'd imagine)

Anyway, I know it is socially unacceptable to post a picture of your underwear but I went shopping today and bought lots of new clothes (I'll do a post about clothes some other time) and got some underwear:  looook I love these, they are so pretty.

what i feel like today.

brighten up

Yesterday I went to my best friend's house, which was really lovely because we hardly spend any time together at school, so it was really nice to just talk a lot. We went for a walk to another friend's house where we watched Tangled (a Rapunzel movie spin-off). I won't bore you with the minute details, but all in all it was a lovely day, despite the fact it rained persistently (classic English weather). 
I must make a personal note to stop commenting on the weather all the time- I think when i do it, people kind of think really? am I so boring you have to resort to making conversation by talking about the weather?
Today was devoted to statistics revision at school. It wasn't too bad, as I got to spend time with a few good friends. [using friendship bonding to soften the 'burden' of going to school while on study leave]
I still haven't finished watching Pierrot Le Fou (Jean-Luc Godard) , would you believe it, so i really must get round to it tomorrow.